Mistakes

you know, i've noticed that most of my journal entries here lately have something to do with Jme and i always fighting or something. today, i barely got to talk to him. our phone conversations were, "hey, what's up, i love you, i'll call you back later." that is pretty much the jist of it. Then Karen, angie, and the kids came ova and i accidently made a mistake and told angie how much jme paid for Stitch. She said he told her less, karen said the same thing. then his mom mentioned him having to borrow money from her. he borrowed money for both of our phone bills, i paid him for mine, and he didnt have the money for his car insurance either. he doesnt tell me this stuff. its startin to piss me off a little. he needs to tell me this stuff. but noooo, he doesnt wanna, or he doesnt wanna get a joint account so i can keep up with our spending limits and stuff. i thought that the family meeting would've solved this but it didn't. hell, nothing much was solved. i love him to death, but i feel like he doesnt trust me. he says he does, but i dont believe he does trust me that much. he is always yellin at me for not trustin him like i should, but he doesnt trust me either. he yells at me for thinkin he is gonna run off with another girl when he'll bring up in a different conversation that he is worried i'll leave him for another girl. so...that proves we both have the same trust issues. i'm sick of him accusing me of accusing him that i think he's cheatin on me. i don't mean to accuse him of it if i do, i don't even think i do. i thin khe reads too much into shit. i hope this gets settled soon. and not by yelling. i'm just sick of this shit. the money, the trust, the whole" why are you calling me" phone conversations